Everything and anything takes effect lots of breath and energy. When I go to work walking from my car to work I have to stop so many times just to catch my breath and it's not even that far. Then I finally get into work I have to stand there pretending I'm doing something so I don't look like an idiot and so my boss doesent get upset at me for standing there and doing nothing, when really all I wanted is a min or so to catch my breath. Then there everything in between that every time I run out of breath I have to yet again try look busy so again I don't look like an idiot catching my breath . Pulling out my phone in public is always a good one I look busy and people don't took at me funny when I stop . You know what it would just be easier if people didn't steer at me for stopping .
I'm so over it same days I just feel like going nah fuck it, I'm over this medical shit , u amazing pills, tests and all the rest havent fixed me I'm still can't go anywhere without having to catch breath , I hold fuild on board I thought this transplant is meant to be my saving grace so why do I feel like I'm sick again .
I'm sick of fighting some days I do really just feel like giving up .
