How do i manage to put not one heart but two hearts into heart failure and im only 25

Well the good news is they found out why im getting shortness of breath but the bad news is it's not really the answer I wanted, I went to my GP she sent me to the hospital the hospital did there all there test as they do and the doctor said iv gone into mild heart failure so she put me on beta-blockers and furosemide, the doctor said it's caused by all the scar tussie from the past rejection.

I feel really bad because when I first had my heart transplant I felt so much better I was so stubborn I stopped taking my pills and decided I didn't need them and well that backfired on me I ended up in rejection, they pumped drugs in to me and I was better again before I knew it fast forward 4 and a half years later and now I'm having this  issue and I don't really have anyone else to blame but my self. I shouldn't really be putting this on here because I don't know who reads this and I guess I'd really dont want the world to know what an idiot I was when I first got my heart ,but I guess you can't change the past. When I first got my heart I was healthy like I'd never been before I had been sick all my life and all of a sudden I got this new life and all I wanted to do was everything and anything except what I was meant to be doing and I didn't care what the doctors had to say, it is different now of course I wouldn't dream of doing that now but it's too late to change the past.

O and I got a another tatoo a heartbeat and the number 214 because 214 is the number heart transplant in New Zealand .