Jess died the other day i still cant believe it she was such an amazing little girl who had been through so much we had our heart transplants round the same time she was the one i was closer to out of all my transplant friends , she was only 16 but i never felt like i was talking to a 16 year old she had been through so much that it made her grown up so fast,
I will never forget this little girl and the good times we shared.
Losing Jess reminds me that having a transplant doesn't make me billet proof at all doesn't matter how well i look after my self there always that change that something can happen to me or that my heart will start rejecting my body, living with that is a scary thing .
This time last year Jono also passes on he had a lung transplant and he was only young too it just doesn't seem fair.
Having a transplant and spending a lot of time at heart towers you meet some amazing people who you get on with so well cos they have been through the same thing as you they spent there life fighting for life just like you but you also meet a lot of people that don't make it , it doesn't seem fair
Rest easy Jess and Jono you guys will never be forgotten...
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
This year sure has been learning but great year , it took me awhile to get my life on track again. Going from sick to healthy from health to been in a realy world and learning all about it,
when i was sick there was no real world it was sick in bed, in hospital ,at doctors , going to Auckland or Hamilton hospital you are just stuck in such a different world, I never had to think of things like paying bills where my next incomes going to come from i was to sick to do any of that it was all done for me , it's all about doctors appointment's pills and staying alive into you get that call for a heart..
It was so different been in a real world, but i love it its exiting been challenged every day, i love that i can work that i can walk to town that i was walk to my letter box, that i can get out of bed everyday that i can breath there just so much i can do now its amazing and i just cant wait for next year that another year of living another year of working
im going to Auckland for new years , Aussie in April I LOVE BEEN HEALTHY
Lily's baby's due early next year and im alive to see it grow up thats only the beginning of what i will get to do next year there so much to look forward to im alive what beats that
My goals for next year to lose some weight i just got way to fat from my silly drugs but now they lowered it im hoping i can do so , eat healthy, and save up for a car
I'm just so lucky that i can enjoy my life i can work i can go out and have fun with friends i can go for walks i can live breath a free life...